Transferred Post 9/16/14 (Love is the key to transformation)

This morning as I was preparing for my day, I spent a few moments intentionally blessing myself audibly.  I simply told my body that I loved it and I thanked it for serving me so well for all of these years.  I told individual body parts that I loved them, my arms, legs, ankles, feet, belly, all of me.  It only took about 30 seconds but I can't help but believe that it makes a difference.

After I did this, I had a revelation: if we intentionally bless everything we like AND everything we dislike about ourselves, we lose the desire to curse the things we don't like about ourselves. We live in a culture where its common for girls and women to openly proclaim all that they hate about themselves as though this hate or anger will somehow compel us to change the habits that resulted in realities we don't like.  Unfortunately focusing on what we hate has the opposite affect we want it to.  

Then I realized a beautiful thing.  We're perfectly loveable just the way we are.  Whether we're 70 lbs overweight or don't fit into our favorite jeans or haven't exercised in months, God literally meets us where we are.  He loves us right here, right now.  He doesn't look at what we hate about ourselves because when God looks at us, He sees that what He created is good!  His love for us is the very thing that fuels our desire to love ourselves into wholeness.  Love always wins!!

So I'll continue to tell my body how much I love and appreciate it daily.  I'll continue to choose to love all of me and trust that as I love, those things that I'm not so fond of about myself will lose their influence over how I think about and treat myself.   Love is the key to transforming the physical me to match the transformation that has already occurred in my mind and spirit.  I feel like I've found the missing link that I've been searching for for so long, and it's absolutely liberating!

10/5/14 Transferred Post (I did colonics and survived)

So here I am, two days after receiving back-to-back colonics on Thursday and Friday nights, and well... I survived!!

The experience was definitely interesting.  I'm pleased to report that there was absolutely no pain whatsoever.  I was diligent about preparing well for the procedures and my body was ready for it.  I did experience some discomfort due largely in part to my monthly female cycle, so if you are considering a series of colonics and are female I highly recommend you schedule around your cycle.  The experience was completely tolerable even with my situation and I'm so glad I went for it.

My stomach is now much flatter, I lost 4 lbs in two days (true, I'm not focusing on numbers but that number tells me I had a significant amount of poo stuck in my body that I wasn't eliminating on my own) and I am so glad it's gone - the weight and the poo!!

I promise not to talk a lot about poo on my blog, but this is definitely a significant part of my journey to wholeness.  Now my body is prepared to more readily absorb the nutrients from the amazing healthy food I'm putting in it.  I'm convinced my body will thank me for cleaning it out and getting  fresh start.

10/1/14 Transferred Post (Prepping for colon hydrotherapy)

I first heard about a colon hydro therapist in Redding while on a mission trip to Tijuana about a year and a half ago. The girl I met was a ministry school student who was on her own health journey. She said something that felt like a bold statement, that though she had been on this journey for quite some time, if she could change anything she would have started with colonics. Colon hydrotherapy was the single most important and impactful thing she'd done for herself.

My response was something like, "wow, that's amazing. What's the therapist's name? Maybe one day I'll be brave enough to visit her as well." And I my head I'm thinking, "oh man, I just don't think I could ever do that."

So here I am now, running full speed, head first into my own health journey and I'm ready to say, "yes, I'm going to do this for myself!"

So I have an appointment tomorrow evening at North State Hydrotherapy with Kris Mann. I have to say, that in the few interactions I've had with Kris, I already feel safe, welcomed, affirmed and fully supported. I have no doubt this will be an amazing experience with incredible benefits.

Now part of my prep is two days of eating light, avoiding a few key foods and drinking lots of water, aloe Vera juice and plenty of fresh veg juice! This one is carrot, celery, kale and ginger. Yum :)

9/6/14 Transferred Post (My Story)

For years I've neglected myself.  There are a number of reasons for this: rejecting societies definition of beauty, an effort to avoid vanity, lack of resources, busy-ness and eventually even laziness all contributed to my behavior.

I didn't want to take the time, waste the money or put forth the effort to pursue beauty and physical health anymore.  I didn't feel like it was worth it, but unfortunately this fed a mindset that secretly said that I'm not worth it.  The less I did for myself, the less I liked myself.  This affects all areas of my life, how much love I can give, how much love I can receive, how I relate to myself, others and even God.

In my first year of ministry school I learned so much about who I am.  I am a daughter in the Kingdom of God.  I am important and what I believe has an impact on my life.  My beauty isn't for my vanity, but rather points to the creator Himself and His nature.  For the first time in years, I decided to intentionally love myself.  To express on the outside the transformation that was happening on the inside mentally and spiritually.

I started out small.  I started playing with color in my hair again.  I started wearing makeup again.  I started trying to buy clothes with some sense of fashion (though I still struggle in this area - mostly because nothing fits the way I think it's supposed to ;)  But it's a process, change can happen over night but this one is taking some time.  And I'm choosing to embrace the process of it all.

At the beginning of this month I started a cleanse.  I'm eating ridiculously healthy and I feel amazing.  I wake up each morning ready for the day.  I'm thinking clearly and accomplishing so much work.  I'm enjoying the process of getting my body clean.

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9/1/14 - Transferred Post (Welcome)

Here we go, in the midst of my delightfully full schedule of life, I'm setting aside some time for myself.  I'm choosing to get healthy.  I tend to feel like I'm quite healthy emotionally and spiritually but have left the physical part at the wayside.  There's always room to grow.  I believe that body, soul and spirit are interconnected and wholeness is dependent on all aspects being in a state of wellness.

I'll share bits of my life here, but mostly my intentional journey to health.  I'm excited to share photos, videos and recipes along with my process and transformation as I go.  It won't all be clean and pretty, but it will be real.  And I hope to share what I learn along the way with others.  So thanks for joining me and feel free to post comments and ask questions.

Blessings!